#they’re the autistic + adhd combo

[kaydenverse]

ghost: me and the bad bitch i pulled by being autistic

soap: :D

[nanamin-nah-nanamine]

Cw: ✨neurodivergent feelings✨

I’m just a little curious cause I’ve been thinking on this topic. Do any other neurodivergent people feel very connected to animals? Like idk, I feel like I’ve always described my own traits and behaviors by comparing them to the common household pet or something cause I feel like that makes it easier for people to understand how I work and I’m not sure if this is just an us thing.

But the downside of this is I end up being seen more like a pet than a person.

I also have a cat and treat him with the same respect,empathy and compassion as I would a human so it really confuses me why others wouldn’t. Like I don’t really see many animals as pets if that makes any sense, cause the term of a pet is putting them below me in my eyes.

Like, my cat is just some little dude that I love and loves me unconditionally even though I’m auDHD with the good old ✨trauma✨ combo added in for spice.

I also know that when I was a child and even still now I wished I was an animal because they’re still treated with love and kindness and nurturing even though we share the same traits and as a black autistic person with adhd I’m just not???

This feels all over the place but yeah fellow neurodivergents please weigh in on this.

Tdlr: neurodivergency works in crazy ways and I think this is how I ended up with a petplay thing🫠

[enbyboiwonder]

any combo of these for the fic writers ask? ❤️👻🏷👓😎💛💌 (also, hope you're doing well!)

I think I’m doing probably so-so (though I was doing better before this disgrace of a website reloaded the tab when I was 95% finished answering this and I had to restart from scratch—I am salty). I dunno how long it’ll last, especially since it’s not simply a periodic downswing, but oh well. I think playing Neverwinter Nights (and fantasizing about if not always writing Hero/Tomi fic) might be helping though, or at any rate, it ain’t hurting.

Send me fanfic author questions!

❤️ What is your favorite line that you’ve written in a fic?

The reason it took me so long to answer this—at least, before this sorry excuse of a website decided to delete everything I’d written because apparently autosaving to drafts is a thing for every type of post except ask responses—was that I had to go back and reread all (well, almost all; some of them I’d rather like to pretend don’t exist and either A. I’m still undecided on whether to orphan or not, or B. I can’t orphan them because they’re part of a series) the fics on my account. Is it weird that my fics don’t really stick in my head that long? Even when I don’t all but block them out. Anyway, it might be…

He feels safe—god, he feels like home.

from Don’t Tell Me Where the Road Ends (MacGyver 2016, macdalton). It’s not anything fancy or eloquent or anything, but idk, I still like it.

Or maybe…

He watches with poorly concealed amusement as Chika seems to work his way through all five stages of grief and back in the span of about two seconds.

from The Shape of Soup (2.43, yunichika)

(Yeah, I had difficulty choosing, so the rest—and the rest of the questions—will be going under the cut for length vvv)

Or even…

Somewhere along the way, his admiration has turned from jealousy to want—from wanting to be him to just wanting him.

the line that birthed not to remain as just a wish (2.43, odaoki)

Or possibly, since I feel like I should have one that is imagery-type/more poetic/(would it be conceited to call it eloquent?)…

His whole body is alight with the fizz of cider close beneath the surface of his skin, overflowed from the cavity of his chest to spill down his limbs and climb up his throat, pooling and sparking in all the places that Mao touched him like senkou hanabi, like miniature fireworks all their own, the brightest of all where Mao's fingers are still tangled with his, and it's wonderful and overwhelming at once.

from candy-apple red (Girls Blue, kisaragi/mao)

👻 What is your wildest headcanon?

I don’t think I have any tbh? My headcanons all tend to be more the run-of-the-mill type and/or generally accepted fanon and/or stuff extrapolated from them being clearly ADHD and/or autistic. They’re small things, like Yuni liking spicy foods but being unable to handle sour stuff while Chika loves both, or Nao liking space but not particularly caring for sci-fi, even sci-fi that’s set in space. In fact, both of those I came up with while writing the fics they show up in lmao (Lemon Squash and 流星群, respectively. Though, technically, Chika liking lemons—with the sort-of implication that Yuni doesn’t—showed up in The Shape of Soup, but that was just lemons.)

🏷️ Is there a tag you like to search for when looking for fanfics to read?

I don’t think I’ve ever gone into a content tag outside of when I was trying to see how to do something while attempting to write smut. It’s never really worked out. Even when I think I’ve figured something out, it all flew out of my head as soon as I opened my own fic. At least I prefer writing non-smutty fics, or this would be a much bigger problem than it is lmao

No, usually what I’ll do is just go into a ship (or character) tag and filter out any tag I come across that I don’t want to read.

👓 What helps you focus when you write?

Music, though that’s also just a general thing. Typically I’ll just listen to whatever I’m already listening to (which for the past few years has mostly been the 2.43 OST), but if I’ve got a specific song or set of songs in mind for a fic, I’ll generally listen to that instead. Sometimes when I’m rewriting a canon scene or writing something that includes one, I’ll just leave the show playing in the background once I’m done with it. (That’s actually how one of my 2.43 rewatches happened lmao, though I guess it only half counts.)

Of course, sometimes my brain will focus on that instead…

Yeah, I haven’t figured out how to reliably hack my ADHD. Mostly I just hope I’ll slip into hyperfocus (and then hope I’ll manage to finish it while I am, but that only very, very rarely happens. Normally I’ll come out of my daze to find I’ve added like 1600 words and I’ve got no idea how to write the missing bits).

😎 What fics do you prefer on a scale of canon compliant to wildly original?

It depends on my mood tbh. Also how much I hate canon (though it can make for some delicious angst, depending on why I hate it). But most of my fics end up being canon compliant, or at least not canon uncompliant, so I guess when it comes to writing, it would be that? Though I do also accumulate my fair share of AUs (but then, most of those are Canon AUs of one sort or another…)

💛 What is the most impactful lesson you’ve learned about writing?

I’m not so sure I’ve learned anything, and certainly not anything impactful, except that I have zero idea how to describe emotions. That, and it’s obnoxious af when people use epithets for the POV character. I can’t believe I used to do that. It makes me what to crawl into a hole and die in shame. Like, what someone/something is referred to in the narrative is how your POV character thinks of them! Your MC can’t be “the other man”—he’s the man! Everyone else is “the other” in reference to him! (That’s probably also why I’ve gravitated more consistently toward referring to the POV character by their given name, though I’ll still use surnames sometimes—and not just when we never learned their given name.)

💌 Is there a favorite trope you like to write?

I tend to prefer writing Pre-Relationship/Feelings Realization/Getting Together/First Kiss stuff over Established Relationship stuff, but I’m not so sure any of those are tropes. Wait, what does count as a trope. Cuz I also love Fluff (particularly the sappy stuff—I’ve had several turn out way sappier than originally intended) and Angst and Hurt/Comfort about equally, but I feel like those are closer to genres than tropes…

Hmm, well, I do love Character x Their Significant Annoyance (A finds B annoying/frustrating/exasperating/baffling/etc. but is still inexplicably fond of them anyway), and I feel like a lot of the fics I’ve written are for pairings with that dynamic, so let’s just go with that, shall we?

I’m also a sucker for tropes in the Fake Dating to Real Dating/Didn’t Realize They Were Dating/Practice Kissing area, though I haven’t finished very many of those, and I also love Crossdressing (particularly sticking unfeminine men in women’s clothing and/or guys just casually wearing women’s clothes), but I haven’t finished any of those, either. Granted, some of those involve smut, which could explain it, but it’s not like all of them do. Half or less.

Plus there’s The Italicized Oh, and I love sticking those sorts of moments into my pre-relationship fics, even if there is no actual italicized “oh.” Just—the yearning. I’m an absolute sucker.

[memento-morri-writes]

I posted 1,448 times in 2022

That's 1,448 more posts than 2021!

743 posts created (51%)

705 posts reblogged (49%)

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#reblog - 552 posts

#morrigan replies - 526 posts

#wip: atqh - 250 posts

#blorbo blursday - 149 posts

#storyteller saturday - 149 posts

#oc asks - 142 posts

#morrigan.txt - 126 posts

#sts - 123 posts

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#atqh: kris - 111 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#(everyone at my high school had to read it freshman year although i did not.  i was on a different track and got to read macbeth and hamlet

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

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Writeblr Intro, Take 2 (+ Nav)

Basics: - Morrigan (aka Morri) - she/her - 18 - student - neurodivergent (autistic + ADHD) - bi ace (also aspec?? maybe??) - ask game and tag game friendly!

My name is Morrigan.  I have an addiction to sci-fi and fantasy, and a deep seated hatred for “insta-love” and melodrama.   I write mostly fantasy at the moment, but there might be some sci-fi popping up eventually.

Some of my favorite tropes / content in media include found family, morally grey characters, LGBTQ+ and POC characters, neurodivergent and mental health representation, hurt/comfort, sarcastic characters (bonus points if they’re the narrator), reluctant allies to friends (basically anything to friends), slow-burn romances, and magic with a cost.

I participate in Worldbuilding Wednesday, Blorbo Blursday, and Storyteller Saturday!

My WIPs:

All the Queen’s Horses:

light fantasy, (probably YA), 3rd person limited POV, slow-ish burn romance with a bi main character, no real magic.

- intro post - wip page (+ story nav) - story tag - content masterlist (not all content is on here!)

Call of Shadows:

YA fantasy / adventure, first person POV with multiple narrators, no romance, lots of magic.

- intro post - wip page (+ more nav) - story tag

General Navigation:

- answered asks - ask games masterlist - oc list - oc asks - storyteller saturday - worldbuilding wednesday - blorbo blursday - non-writing posts - reblogs of other’s stuff

57 notes - Posted July 9, 2022

#4

Underrated Whump Trope: POISON

There's just so much you can do with it!! So many different delivery methods and symptom combos. And if you can't find an existing poison/poisonous substance that fits your needs, just make one up!! But like, the shock, the panic, the potential for betrayal... The diversity of potential symptoms, and of their effect time. The panic of trying to find an antidote. Not knowing how long the character has, because you have no idea what poison was used.

Plus, if your WIP involves magic, you can have all kinds of bonus stuff. Like, a poison that resists magical healing. A poison that turns the victim's magic against them. A poison that renders their magic useless.

Just, poison.

89 notes - Posted September 16, 2022

#3

a concept: ghosts who grow more powerful with age.

ghosts whose essence seeps in to the building they haunt, til they can open doors and close windows with a thought. ghosts who become the building.

ghosts who've haunted ruins since they were new, who do what they can to preserve them, in hopes that someone will remember them, or the place they lived.

ghosts so old, so powerful, they can change the weather. (have you wondered why the weather is so strange by the ruins?)

ghosts who lose their shape, becoming nothing but energy. they are so much more powerful now, without their cage to limit them.

ghosts who are afraid of losing their shape, because how can they exist without a body? alternatively, ghosts who can't wait to lose their form, because they never felt at home in it anyways.

ghosts who slowly spread out, from one house to the next and on and on until they can touch the entire city.

ghosts of lost shipwrecks, trapped under the water until they learn to swim, to fly, to expand. they learn the ocean is not their prison, it is their home.

ghosts

138 notes - Posted August 7, 2022

#2

thinking about self-sacrifice in media, and how we tend to see it as heroic. but what if people self-sacrifice because they don't value themselves? what if they think the best way to give their life meaning is to die to save someone else? thinking about characters who unlearn that ideology and choose to live, choose to find another way to save people. not because they don't want to help, but because maybe, just maybe, they started to see that they are valuable alive.

After all, what is self-sacrifice but self-destruction for a cause?

228 notes - Posted September 28, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Fantasy doesn't just mean magic and monsters and castles or quests and far-away lands. Fantasy means "this is my fantasy, and if I can't live it, I'm going to let my characters live it for me."

361 notes - Posted September 15, 2022

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[bowiebond]

Lucas is Autistic. I will not be taking criticism ❤️

[stickrrpop]

neurodivergent lmk headcanons

( please keep in mind that op is autistic/adhd, and has dyscalculia plus dyspraxia. if i dont go into depth about other neurodivergencies, it is because i dont not have them. thank you! )

★ okay let’s start off with pigsy. honestly i see him as a neurotypical who is really knowledgeable about nd stuffs. OR he is autistic and has a special interest in cooking. honestly you could take it either way. but anywhom he ALWAYS carries a small bag with him, obviously for bandaids yeah but he also brings sensory headphones, fidget/stim toys, or small and soft stuffies. sandy definitely helped him with what to bring though.

★ now sandy, he’s either got adhd or is neurotypical like pigsy. like i really just see these two as the good nt friends. but to elaborate on the adhd hc. he on and off hyperfixates on tea. when he does fixate on the drink, he buys SO MUCH TEA. there’s usually two cabinets full in his house when he’s done. if he’s with someone and they’re having a sensory meltdown, he’ll try to scurry them out of where they are as soon as possible.

★ QXT (mk, it’s just the shortened version of qi xiaotian) is autistic/adhd and has dyspraxia. just, really poor balance. and with the combo of both autism AND adhd AND dyspraxia, he ended up really bad at following schedules (As we’ve sorta seen in the show). his special interest is well, monkey king. HE ALSO STIMS BY SNAPPING HIS FINGERS!! he messes with his hands a lot, he’d also jumps from one foot to the other to stim. and he totally does flappy arms, he’s very energetic and so “bigger” stims are usually what he does. OH AND HE HAS DYSCALCULIA. i saw the “and 2 + 2 = 3 ! the third ring!” scene and ran with it.

★ Red Son has tourettes and is very much autistic mhmhm. it’s a known symptom (a small percentage of people with tourettes) to have uncontrollable anger. here’s a great tiktok about it by the way! i dont have tourettes so i dont wanna go into depth with it !! but red son stims by playing with tiny fires, messing with the fabric of his clothes, or making hand gestures while speaking. the list goes on for his symptoms while ill probably make a separate post for. and also he repeats what people say sometimes under his breath.

★ Mei definitely has adhd and is PERHAPS autistic. she vocal stims a LOT. and flappy hands would probably be her most common stim. she really likes technology and so she probably gets hyperfixated on something new based around that every couple of weeks. she also has sensory headphones on her at all times for QXT.

★ sun wukong is definitely autistic and dyslexic. his special interest is peaches and i dont take no for an answer. (/j). he’s also horrible at social cues and understanding what personal space is but he tries his best to understand from past experiences. also NO VOLUME CONTROL. none. zero. he has a small stuffed monkey that QXT gave to him as a gift, it has the same texture as his fur and he usually stims/fidgets with it a lot.

★ macaque is also autistic, very bad at communication skills. he stims by taps his foot against the ground or clanking his teeth together gently. macaque 100% wears sensory headphones, mostly because of how LOUD everything is with his six ears, but also again, for sensory issues. he also really hates bright lights.

★ yin and jin are both autistic and have dyspraxia. you cant tell me they dont. they really like to stim by saying each other’s names. 

★ nezha is also autistic. i dont have much reasoning quite yet because so far he only has like four minutes of screen time lmao, but he is! he talks very bluntly and likes to get his point across. he stims by tapping his fingers together and spinning his staff around. (doesnt have to be anything fancy, could just be a simply twirl)

★ TANG IS AUTISTIC. we all saw this one coming. his special interest is history, and also he infodumps a lot. he maybe also has dyspraxia, he has bad balance coordination skills, you can just tell!! he really likes to fidget with his glasses/scarf. he also taps his fingers on any nearby objects a lot. 

[suburbanflats]

Based on your last post I would love to hear you hcs about literally any of the plants heroes

JRHRHRHRHRHRHRHRHRHRHRHH OKOKOKOKOKOKOK HIII i’ll pick out some misc headcanons since you didn’t specify anyone :D - so green shadow and solar flare were raised as sisters by dave! (and combustible when dad wasn’t around) they get along super well and the reserved-calm paired with the energetic-social combo makes them great to work with! grass knuckles is trans i will not elaborate wall-knight is autistic! can plants be autistic? idk but he’s autistic! honestly most of the plant heroes give off neurodivergent vibes..... grass knuckles & solar flare adhd, green shadow autistic, nightcap alexithymia but I Digress hehehehe chompzilla is way bigger and more monstrous in my canon/au, she’s around the size of a two-story house. dave has to bring tacos out for her she’s too big to fit in his house :( chompzilla is an older sister to wall-knight!!!!! they were my two favs back when i began so they’re almost siblings now :) solar flare has a gaming/streaming channel, sometimes dave drops in and does silly dad things  wall-knight, green shadow and solar flare are all kids (12 - 15 age range, in human years idk plants age weirdly) so they’re all little siblings to everyone else the cap’n is SUPER protective over the other heroes he’s their stand-in dad grass knuckles likes plushies :) realising there’s a lot of found family here

[acersgenderhoard]

pinned post, please read!

EDIT - i havent updated most of this in ages. its outdated currently

★・・・・★my names/pronouns★・・・・★

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i go by castiel, strat, jack, avis, and ghoul currently (+ more), but i’m not picky abt what you call me! i’ll answer to most anything :)

i currently use he/★/rot/it/sun/lethe/day/it/lux/none/⚣, but it does change sometimes (i update the list in this post pretty regularly, and i do always use he/him, so when in doubt, default to that!)

★・・・・・・ ★ about me!★・・・・・・★

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i’m 17. i’m white, physically abled, autistic, and have adhd, depression and generalized anxiety. i’m professionally diagnosed w all but depression, but i’m pro informed self-dx

i’m an arospec ace bi gay guy

i support all good-faith identities, including “conflicting” labels like lesboys/turigirls or bi lesbians/gays.

★・・・・・★recoins/etc★・・・・・★

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please don’t redesign flags for any of my terms without permission. you’re absolutely free to use my flags for picrews, pfps, etc as long as you credit me, though, and i’m fine with editing my flags to make them more accessible (eg making a flag less bright to avoid eyestrain)

also: if something is inadvertently offensive or harmful about a term i coin, please let me know and i’ll delete or edit any posts i have about it !!

this blog is a sideblog, and i can’t follow or send asks from it. @fagboybreakdowns is my main :)

also, i try to remember to put alt text and plain text in my posts but i sometimes forget (and sometimes it just glitches). if you’d like plain text or an id on a particular post of mine that doesn’t have it, ask and i can provide it (i also greatly appreciate other people adding ids and/or transcribing my posts, y’all are awesome)!

★・・・・★tagging system!★・・・・★

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★・・・・・・★requests!★・・・・・・★

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i will coin new terms and make flags and flag combos, and i’ll do name and pronoun validations and suggestions, as well as make term moodboards!

i won’t do recoins, new flags for existing terms (unless they’re flagless currently or the term creator is ok with it), etc. i won’t do term searches. i won’t coin attraction terms (sexualities, romantic identities, etc). i also won’t coin terms related to being part of a marginalized group i’m not part of (poc, physically disabled, etc).

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-kink/nsfw/18+ blog

-exclus

-transphobes

-thinspo/pro-ana

-bad-faith label users (like “animesexual”, “attack helicopter”, “trans age” etc)

-anti self-dx

-anti otherkin/therian

-cringe culture supporters

-bigots of any kind

-aspie supremacy/autistic ableism

also, a note: if you’re on my dni, you can still use any of my terms. feel free to just screenshot my posts instead of reblogging them :)

[eldritch-bf]

Hey, I’m sorry if this comes off as presumptuous or is otherwise unwelcome but I saw your guide on how to represent BPD in fiction and I was wondering if you knew of any sources addressing DPD in particular? I realize you’re not, like, the all-knowing god of personality disorders (I’m not even sure what flavor of despair my bipolar counts as lmao) but dependence was a big thing that came up when I was initially brainstorming for the character and it’s still p significant in his arc throughout the wip. I just don’t want to unknowingly perpetuate anything negative or do that weirdo thing where a character is blatantly coded as something yet the creator doesn’t seem to know (or respect) anything about it and doesn’t commit to it (if that makes any sense). There’s kind of a dearth of resources by those with DPD concerning the experience meant for an outside perspective (and just in general tbh) and I’m not going to intrude in spaces meant for those with DPD. Thanks in advance, and, again, I apologize if this isn’t the type of ask you’re open to.

Writing A Character With DPD + Bonus Comments

Hey! I’m very sorry I never saw a notification for this ask and I have no idea when you sent it.

This is the best source I was able to find that wasn’t ableist or basically said “it’s great to have characters with personality disorders because it makes them ~spicy~”. It goes through the criteria one by one with examples of how this presents in life. It also has “associates features��� which are things that aren’t diagnostic criteria but are common in people with DPD.

I will tack this on here since I didn’t cover it myself in my BPD post and nor does the article cover it.

Mitigating Factors To Diagnosis & Treatment

Remember women, queer, BIPOC, and impoverished people (1) face higher rates of incorrect diagnosis or no diagnosis as their doctors are less likely to listen to them or don’t have access to one (2) face higher barriers to seeking treatment whether it be in the form of therapy or medication, either financial or simply because they live far away from a major city wiry adequate medical resources (3) face higher rates of abuse. Mentally ill people face higher rates of abuse and stigmatization in general, and if your character is any combo of the above, those become compounded.

Obviously if your character (I’m speaking generally here for everyone) is a white affluent woman (DPD is more commonly diagnosed in women) she will be more likely to have resources to help her. You could even bring up this disparity casually if she’s in a support group and becomes friends with, say a poor Latina woman from a rural community who has to drive an hour and a half to therapy and didn’t get any help until she was hospitalized after a su*cide attempt, but that’s just my brain spinning ideas.

Combat Stigmatization

I’m also going to talk briefly about stigmatization of mental illness. Depending on the disorder, we are either characterized as (1) inherently violent, abusive, dangerous (Borderlines, Psychotics, Bipolars, Antisocials, Dissociatives, etc.) and often used as an explanation in real life and fodder in movies as serial killers or just the crazy stalker obsessed with the girl next door. or (2) feeble, a burden, hopeless (Depressives, Dependents, Autistics, PTSDs, etc.) or (3) not taken seriously, ignored, fakers (ADHDs, Depressives, Anxious, PTSDs, Anorexics, Bulimics, etc.)

So I would largely recommend as a blanket Do Not make your character fit one of these negative stereotypes in an uncritical way since it contributes to this stigmatization. By uncritical, I mean you can absolutely have a character with DPD feel like they’re a burden to their family or even be directly told they are (even if it’s true or not or that character is just an asshole), but just don’t play into it. Show your character making strides to improvement or how hard they struggle to be better but simply can’t. Not every mentally ill character needs to recover or whatever by the end of the story. I will always have BPD but I’m “recovered” (which is a misnomer) because I’m better at coping. Have asshole characters who think the diagnosis is nonsense. My go to response is “oh do you have a medical degree?”. Etc.

And I always say recovery isn’t an uphill slope, where each time you stumble you start at the bottom again. It’s a cycle of recovery and relapse and each time you might get a little bit better. You may repeat the same mistakes a thousand times. Some people cannot cope effectively and that’s okay. The mentally ill people who matter aren’t just the ones who “recover”.

Final Thoughts

I firmly believe no writer has to have xyz illness in order to write about it. As long as a writer does their research, compassionately portrays the character (not the character having compassion, but you treating your character with compassion), and gets 1-3 people with xyz illness to look over the character summary or a particularly important chapter strongly focusing on the illness, I think you’re fine.

[multimousenette]

i’ve watched way to much equestria girls in the last three days so here are my hot takes

equestria!twilight is bi but human!twilight is a lesbian

i’ve heard that sunset shimmer is confirmed bi but given that she said she never actually liked flash sentry, i’m gonna say she has a STRONG preference for girls, and dated him from a combo of comphet and power grabbing

equestria!mane 6 are in a polycule except pinkie, who has no idea. human!mane 6 are not

pinkie is probably a deity of some sort and i 100% believe she constantly goes through the portal and is in both worlds at once, hence why she always knows exactly what’s going on... just a hunch

they’re ALL neurodivergent. rarity’s autistic and her special interest is fashion. rainbow has ADHD. pinkie has both — i enjoy that she’s actually pretty bad at social interactions despite having a special interest in parties/party planning. twilight is definitely autistic — not just the smart and bad at friends, but she’s clumsy, and has shown signs of sensory overload etc. applejack’s unwavering honesty, fear of voicing her emotions, and struggling to identify her emotions? autistic. sunset shimmer is autistic because i’m autistic and i said so. fluttershy has severe social anxiety.

they’re also all gay. rarity is an ace lesbian. applejack is a lesbian. rainbow dash is a lesbian. pinkie pie is pan. fluttershy is a demigirl and on the aro&ace spectrums.

i ship rarity x applejack, rainbow x pinkie, twilight x sunset, but only as humans. as ponies there’s very different dynamics.

principal celestia is a milf... actually all the teachers are oops

it feels more like a college than a high school but also i’m a brit so idk what a high school is actually like

also i think the show is great but also it’s hilarious that someone just got their high school au produced

[adhd-wifi]

A Bunch of Random ADHD Wei Ying Headcanons

Because it’s my 1000th post an I wanted it to be ADHD-themed lol

When he was little he was extremely skittish and kept expecting Jiang FengMian to throw him back out on the streets. Took him a little more than three years to start believing he was genuinely welcome in the Jiang Sect (trauma factors not to be ignored)

When he began to enjoy training as a young disciple he would spend WAY TOO MUCH time on the training field

It got to the point that Madam Yu of all people had to yell at him to go eat because Jiang Cheng was making a fuss about it and she was getting annoyed (Jiang Cheng was genuinely worried but he has really bad tsundere-syndrome so...)

Wei Ying's other skills are ALL the result of a heavy-hitting triple-combo of understimulation, way too many interests, & RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria)

Once he got good at the sword & bow & swimming he wanted more things to challenge himself with so he dove into the arts, such as painting & playing the flute, which he thought was amazing and tricky (I know they're expected to be good at the arts anyway but considering Jiang Cheng showed no explicit signs of having learned the arts as well I like to HC that the Jiang Sect was more lenient on that)

At the back of his mind though he also had a constant thought of "the more skilled [he] has, the more worth as a Jiang disciple [he] has"

Forgot Jiang YanLi's birthday once and cried terribly about it in his room alone until he fell asleep

Painstakingly hand-crafted her a gift to make up for it, then did it for every single year (Jiang Cheng's too) onwards, usually locking himself up in his room for a week beforehand to work on it

Jiang Cheng had to drag him out several times with threats of Madam Yu yelling at them both

Actually surprising good at studying but only if he is IMMENSELY interested in the topic

Surprised Lan Zhan during his one-month Cloud Recesses punishment because he accidentally found a book on swords he liked and did nothing but hyperfocus on the book the whole day

Lan Zhan thought he was trying to get out of copying for the day and intentionally ignoring the scolding

Nah

Although honestly that's a very fair assumption given Wei Ying's personality

Couldn't sleep the whole first week at the Cloud Recesses because everything felt wrong but functioned fairly well cuz he has experience with occasional insomnia (I'm definitely projecting hard on this one)

Was overconfident in his control over the resentful energy because he's used to forcing down his negative emotions due to having done that his entire life

Hates radishes because they're a SPECIFICALLY awful taste & texture that just feels wrong (autistic friends will probably understand this too)

Zones outs any time someone he doesn't like is talking

Probably writes down notes but forgets about the notes within the hour

Is good with kids because kids are very open about their quirks and he's used to dealing with "weird quirkiness" in both himself and whatever he doesn't understand with others

Sometimes that means burying a child in the dirt but we've all been there once

...no? Okay.

In the same vein he's good at teaching because he's good at improvising weird methods and solutions to deal with immediate problems

Long-term problems require organizational skills and the ability to actually remember them therefore he sucks at dealing with those

Thinks being playful and positive while crying on the inside is self-care

Save him

Harm anyone he's attached to and he'll sell you to Satan for one corn chip even though no one believes in Satan in ancient China (not that kind of Satan anyway)

On that note, gets easily but EXTREMELY attached to people who are kind to him and the people he loves but really doesn't think he's worth those attachments being reciprocated because RSD is a bitch

Often still worries if Lan Zhan and Sizhui truly love him as husband and father respectively, and will have to hold back tears when they swear they do

He likes cuddles. He really really really really REALLY like cuddles, especially after marriage. If Lan Zhan doesn't cuddle him he won't be able to sleep and he'll whine about it

When Lan Zhan plays or hums WangXian for him, Wei Ying likes to silently hyperfocus on the emotional aspect of the music as he curls into his hubby's arms

[autisticzukka]

Do you have any mailee head cannons?

YES I DO 

+ have you ever had a very weird, competitive three way friendship, and you’re all allegedly straight because you’re like 8 years old, but you’re absolutely acting like this new ho 2nd grader is the OTHER WOMAN HOW FUCKING DARE SHE

+ I like to think that that’s how Mai and Ty Lee started out.

+ Azula was their focal point. Pleasing her was important, and Azula only knows how to interact in relationships how she was taught - paranoia, control, domination, pitting one against the other to fight for her affection. She models her dad in so many ways from a young age, since he picks her as his favorite. 

+ They go to finishing school together. The vibes only get tenser, and weirder. Mai and Ty Lee never have a chance to bond outside of Azula’s influence. They don’t even find comfort in commiserating glances: in their own ways, they both love Azula. She’s been the center of them for so long, and while she was never a good friend she used to be... better. And she was something - stunning to watch, a prodigy, ruthless in protecting what was hers, and they were both hers. When they graduate, Mai is sent to the colonies with her parents. Ty Lee runs away to join the circus. Azula is left at loose ends, alone with no one but Ozai. She starts to crumble mentally.

+ Next time they see Azula, Azula will have gone from ‘flawed centerpiece of an unhealthy trio’ to ‘excessively controlling and manipulative, on the edge of a paranoid breakdown and convinced they’re the only ones she can trust, unwilling/unable to see how outright coercion on previously unheard of levels might change their dynamic’. She threatens Ty Lee’s life. She sacrifices Mai’s little brother. 

+ Eventually it comes to a breaking point, and the unprecedented happens. Mai rebels. Mai says no. And Ty Lee? Ty Lee takes her side. Ty Lee chooses her.

+ notably, my friendship didn’t end like that. and me and her would make TERRIBLE significant others, even if my heart yearns for her cuz my hearts Fucking Stupid. But a bro can dream about the potential of a dynamic, ya know?

+ I think that Mai and Ty Lee work very well in the same dynamic that people are drawn to with Zuko & Sokka, tbh. Or at least that I’m drawn to in Zuko and Sokka. I like to headcanon Mai as autistic, and I think a solid case could be made for ADHD Ty Lee. This is a very powerful combo because you understand each other, but you’re also min-maxed in slightly different ways. 

+ Mai is never going to be great at instantly befriending people, and Ty Lee is probably never going to be great at like, income taxes. I could see Mai doing the FUCK out of some income taxes. 

+ They have a shared language built on so much history together, the way you do when you’ve known anyone for a long time and through formative events. Mai can shift her shoulders a little and raise her pitch a bit and Ty Lee will crack up, because she’s doing an impression of a chaperone who had it OUT for Ty Lee. 

+ They can mourn for a relationship with Azula in a way that no one else really will, or will understand. Zuko did have fun with her when they were small, but his relationship has been strained with her for so long he like... the grief he works through is going to be grief solely about lost potential. Ursa deliberately erased her memories, and she never liked her much in the first place. Ozai has never cared about his relationships with anyone. The grief and anger that they work through is about wanting someone to be better, sticking beside someone for so long, and them just...doubling down on their bullshit. trauma bond activate lmao

+ they get matching friendship tattoos before they even start dating. Ty Lee, because it feeds into her individuality thing, and Mai, because it sounds like the opposite of what a lady would do, and nothing is permanent permanent anyways when we’re all in a constant state of decay, amirite? I’m thinking probably a throwing knife, over one of the spots Ty Lee hits to disable bending that can be easily covered by clothes.

+ they both struggle with commitment, even as they both desperately need the stability of a strongly worded commitment. being vulnerable is hard for both of them. being the only people who can really understand about Azula helps them learn to trust that it’s safe to open up to each other. learn to trust again, after years of being subtly and not-so-subtly turned against each other to appease Azula.

+ they also have the ability to hurt each other very deeply, and so when they fight it’s...super nasty. it stops reaching that level as the years go on and they feel more secure in their relationship, but in the beginning? even when theyre just still SUPER homoerotically charged friends? um. it gets bad. frequently. there’s some incredibly rocky on-off-again shenanigans. 

+ Ty Lee keeps trying to braid Mai’s hair in her sleep and it becomes a personal challenge and in joke to 1. wear Mai out enough that she’ll sleep through it, 2. increase the amount and intricacy of the hairstyle every time, 3. Mai’s shriek of outrage when she wakes up and her hair is in braids that made it crimp strangely overnight

+ Mai and Ty Lee work off excess energy by Mai throwing knives and Ty Lee dodging them. They’re both skilled enough that this works, with minimal clothing loss (and that’s not really what they’d consider a loss). Do not try at home. 

[yopinky]

These are my neurodivergent headcanons for OK KO!

Dendy is autistic and has a special interest in Pow Cards and coding.

KO is autistic and has ADHD, and TKO is a manifestation of his intrusive thoughts, which I can relate to a lot since I have OCD with lots of those thoughts. He is hyperempathetic (like me), but doesn’t always understand social cues. He also has a special interest in Pow Cards.

Boxman is autistic, and his special interest is attacking the plaza. He’s very flamboyant and disregards social cues as unnecessary. He embraces his autism as a part of his identity.

Combo Breaker is autistic and has ADHD. I’m not sure what his special interest would be, but he is the kind of person who would infodump for hours. He’s very extroverted and hyperactive, and stims by flying. In order to calm himself down, he brings a personal pressure blanket to class, something that keeps him focused. He also has Rhotacism (which is unrelated but is something I relate to A LOT).

They’re all wearing red instead of blue because Autism Speaks sucks. Also, the ADHD pride bands KO and Combo wear are from a pride flag made by @autistic-trans . I hope you like my headcanons. As an autistic person with OCD, I relate to these characters a lot!

[ajokeformur-ray]

Hiii again. I figured that submit option would be easier for this. ^^ 

I love your matchups, they’re so accurate and thought through.❤️ Can I have one too? My name’s Emily, I have blue hair and blue “husky” eyes, got two tattoos and plan to have more, I’m very pale and I hate people saying things like “you look like a ghost, go get a tan” I usually dress like a witch, but sometimes i doll myself up as a pinup girl to feel pretty.I’m autistic, depressed, have ADHD & ptsd (nice combo, ha?^^) I’m also sarcastic, reserved and have a dark sense of humor.I’m oversensitive to lights and noises. I don’t like being hugged or touched by strangers, but once i get comfortable with someone I transform into their koala.^^ My life is a bit messy, I try to do tasks on time and remember important things, but it’s hard. I have two kids cats, Lilith I found under the bridge and Harold in woods. I’m a big spooky fun, I love horror movies and Halloween. I like drawing (my arts are creepy tho, def not for everyone to see), playing guitar, singing, reading books, running and walking in the woods. I’m interested in psychology & astrophysics and I love when people want me to teach them something. I can’t live without music and my cats. @dont-be-alarmed

Hi, my love! 💙 Thank you so much, I spend a lot of time on matchups and it means a lot that you, one of my favourite writers, find them accurate! I hope this one lives up to your kind words and that you enjoy it! 💜 (I’m happy to redo it if not, angel!) I wanted to give back to you after all you’ve ever done for me and for this community, and so I went on your other blog and scrolled through; I found a post about yourself and Arthur and I’ve tried to incorporate pieces of that in here to make it as… emotionally you as I could. I hope that you don’t mind! 💚

Total word count: 3, 785.

Arthur // wc: 1, 755.

Arthur is… completely in awe of you. You caught his attention due to your bright blue hair; such a vibrant colour in the grimy streets of Gotham which are made up of much the same; grey concrete, grey walls, grey buildings, grey sky, is unusual and eye-catching. Arthur wants to be seen and he admires the courage you possess in having such a hair colour. And your eyes, oh… It’s canon that Arthur likes to touch people’s cheeks and he holds people’s faces in his hands, and when sea green meet your blues, the entire world stops and Arthur can only sink into you; for if eyes are windows to the soul then surely yours is radiant. You’re not afraid to paint the blank canvas which is your body and Arthur likes to trace your tattoos with a careful finger, his lips moving silently as he thinks to himself; he wants to know if there are stories behind them, why you got them, how badly they hurt, what they mean to you… if the mind is an ocean then Arthur wants to dive right into yours and discover your murkiest depths now. But he holds back; he doesn’t want to ruin what he’s building with you, and so every day when he discovers something new does he only fall deeper and deeper in love with you. You’re very pale and people are quick to point it out. If it happens in front of Arthur, he’s quick to frown, “Don’t say things like that to her, Emily’s perfect just as she is!”. He won’t tell people off when they say bad things about him, but about you? He has to stop himself from going feral and he contents himself with snapping at them or, if it’s something which is truly nasty, Arthur gives them such a look it’s like he’s trying to kill them without even touching them. His knees will bounce and he’ll giggle around his cigarette, but he’ll only be concerned for you. Arthur would do anything for you. No matter what you were, Arthur always compliments you sincerely; his voice soft and raspy because he’s barely able to speak through the rising laughing in his throat. Such is the effect you have on him.  

You and Arthur have so much in common. Sometimes when you talk to each other, it’s like you’re talking to yourself but you’re hearing it in a different voice. You have shared many experiences and there’s so much about Arthur which exists within yourself; you are both so worthy of love and you are both capable of being loved for exactly who you are, and in the early days first of friendship (though you begin to date quickly, both of you so eager to discover what may exist between you),  you mostly bond together over your shared dark sense of humour. Over the weeks which bleed into months, Arthur’s comedy material becomes more tailored to your sense of humour; for what you find funny and making you smile means more to him than anyone else. He could have a crowd at Pogo’s captivated but your smile would be the only one which he has eyes for. The both of you are so tried and tired, so weary and you’ve both been through so much more than people should ever have to go through, but you help each other and you’re there for each other as much as you can be every single day. You’re over sensitive to lights and to noises so when you’re out in public together, Arthur keeps a close eye on you. He learns the signs for when it’s becoming too much and the two of you talk often; late night discussions with dimmed lamps and a turned down volume on the TV, and the two of you learn how to help each other and how to be more open together. It’s a shared journey, this love between you, and it’s once in a lifetime. Neither of you could ever want this with anyone else. Arthur was almost shocked by the difference in you from when he first met you to when you became comfortable with him and all the ways in which you showed affection changed and became more intimate, but he takes it as a compliment. You’re so comfortable with him and he cherishes that information above anything else. He’s just as comfortable with you, and he tries to show you every single day the depths of the love which he holds for you.  

Your life is as messy as Arthur’s is busy, but the two of you make it work as best as you can. You do your best to remember important things but it’s hard, and for everything you forget is Arthur there to remind you. Sometimes he has to leave the apartment before you so he’ll leave a quickly scrawled note taped to the front door in big letters so you can see it even from a distance, or he’ll make sure that you’ve got everything ready in the same place, like right next to or on top of your shoes so they can’t be forgotten. Your two kitties, Lilith and Harold, are doted upon by yourself and by Arthur. He had always wanted a pet, someone or something to come home to whom was happy to see him, and now he has three beings who love him: you, Lilith and Harold. The fact that you rescued both of your children shows the true depths of your heart and Arthur’s in awe of you. He adores watching you interact with them. It always makes him coo and the ice in his heart which is left over from the day melts away and then evaporates completely at the touch of your hand and the sound of your voice. You love horror films and Hallowe’en and Arthur loves watching how excited you get when October rolls around! Carving pumpkins together, creating decorations and the jokes just get darker and more morbid… he comes to love the holiday as much as you do, though he’s not as fond of horror films as you are. Life is horrifying enough and if he wants to be scared, he’ll just watch the news - but when you’re more comfortable together and you’re his koala, he likes to cling to you and hide his face in your neck as a way of becoming closer to you. Arthur cherishes the few scant hours he gets with you every night. It’s yours and his favourite time of day and it only makes your daily hardships almost worth it.   

You are… extremely creative. Your writing is so descriptive and so vivid, your drawing is beautiful, you can sing, you play an instrument… music runs through your soul just as surely as it does within Arthur, and one night when Arthur was much too shy to tell you that he loved you, he instead said, “you are the music in me”. It’s an admission which, years later, still haunts you in the best way. If you ever let him read what you have written or view what you have created, though he may be creeped out, he would still compliment you sincerely and ask you some questions, wanting to see things through your beautiful blue eyes. If you’re open to the idea, Arthur would love to sit down and listen to you sing and play the guitar; and if you have ever written any songs for him, they would bring tears to his eyes and he would find himself choking down laughter. How can you love him this much? Just as much as you have become more open and kinder to yourself in loving Arthur, so has he because of your love, and the two of you walk hand in hand down the path of life together, leading each other into your better selves; such is the power of love. When you read, Arthur likes to write in his journal and the sounds of his scrawling are the perfect accompaniment to the sounds of your turning the pages of the book you cradle in the palm of your hands as surely as you hold Arthur’s heart in your hands. Though he never asks, Arthur would love to go with you on a walk through the woods. You can see it in his eyes sometimes, how desperately he wants to go with you, but he’s too afraid of rejection and too shy. When you come back from your running, the bathroom is all ready for you to have a shower, there are clean clothes out for you and dinner is ready. Arthur does everything he can to take the best care of you possible; for truly do you deserve nothing less than the best of everything in life. 

You’re interested in a variety of subjects and as a way to engage with you, for he so loves the way your eyes and face light up when you’re talking about the things you’re passionate about, Arthur would sit down with you and ask you questions. Even if he doesn’t fully understand what you’re talking about, especially with astrophysics, he still sits and he listens and Arthur engages with you. And if you have a hyperfixation, then he’s right there with you. He validates your interests and wants to know as much as you’re willing to share with him! It’s just another way for him to spend time with you, to get to know you, to tell you that he loves you. You’ve spent many a night talking the time away about your interests and you have so much in common that it’s unsurprising that you feel like you have known each other forever. Music and cats are your life and Arthur protects everything that he knows about you, because you mean the entire world to him and you deserve to know just how much he loves you! No matter where you go, what you do or who you become, Arthur loves you for all of you - he’s learned all the ways to help you through your various struggles, through the things which you go through (including the ones only you know about), and he does everything he can to help you, to love you the way that you deserve to be. Even when he’s so, so tired, the two of you pull each other through life with your joined hands, fingers interlocked… and neither of you will ever let go of the other.

Joker // wc: 2, 030.

By now,  you and Joker know each other like the backs of your hands. There isn’t much that you don’t know about each other, though of course is it impossible to ever really know someone in their entirety, so every day do you discover something new about one another which only makes you fall deeper in love with each other. Even though you know each other so well, Joker still finds himself wanting to completely dive into who you are to find out everything all at once; to view the tapestry of your life in its entirety without having to wait for the discovery of something else. He loves you so much it hurts him in the best way. Your name is Joker’s favourite word and he sometimes catches himself whispering it when he needs some extra strength or a reason to slow the rage in his veins, which threatens to poison his heart and turn his soul away from the goodness which still exists in his very core, unchanged is he deep inside himself where he is safest. You were there with Arthur through it all and you only loved him more as the man he was now. With your bright blue hair and Joker’s electric green hair, the two of you catch people’s attention when you’re out in public; Gothamites aren’t known for their courageous self expression, so wearied and beaten are they by the soulless and relentless demands of the city. The two of you like to redye your hair together; even if Joker’s hair has faded back into his naturally dark curls, he will wait for you to need to redye your hair. Joker dyes your hair and you dye his and the flecks of blue and green blend and merge together in the bathroom sink; Joker likes to get messy so green runs all down his back and pools into the waistband of his baggy underwear, and he ends up making more mess than you do. Joker adores your tattoos and he knows the reasons and stories behind them as well as you do and he gets excited when you talk about having more. Joker’s less forgiving now when people make comments about how pale you are, and he’s not afraid to narrow his eyes, his nostrils flaring slightly in anger, and fire back a few well-timed insults of his own. Whether you dress like a witch or as a pinup girl, Joker is in awe of you and sometimes he literally chokes on air because he’s just so stunned by you and all that you are; you’re so beautiful inside and out and he just can’t believe, even now, how lucky he is to be loved by you. 

Just because Joker gave up on his own mental health - he stopped taking his medications, he stopped taking care of himself and he stopped caring - it didn’t mean that he would ever allow you to do the same. Joker wanted nothing but the best for you and he would do anything he could for you. This, combined with the fact that Joker knows exactly how to support you and how to look after you when you need to be loved extra hard. Both of you are worthy of being loved for exactly who you are, and when you feel like you’re unwanted and not capable of being loved, Joker cradles you on his lap - your favourite seat - and  tucks your head into his chest, his heartbeat pounding in your ear to ground you and to calm you. He knows how to hold you, how to talk to you, how to comfort you, and he even knows how to ground himself and also you in the same touches. If anyone understands you and what you go through every single day, it’s Arthur, and that’s never been and would never be any different. You’re sarcastic and Joker enjoys playful banter between the two of you. He knows when you’re being sarcastic because you’re having fun and when you’re being sarcastic because your mood is low, but either way will Joker snap back. He enjoys swapping comments with you if that’s something you like to do, and by now his dark humour is perfectly tailored to your own. Of all the citizens in Gotham, your smile is the only one which matters and your laughter is the only one Joker closes his eyes to fully savour. You are Joker’s koala now and he loves every touch which you gift him with. Coming home to you is the absolute favourite part of Joker’s every day and sometimes he stays away for just a little longer so that he can get an extra enthusiastic hug or some clingy touches. You’re over sensitive to lights and noises and Joker is used to keeping the TV on a certain volume and to buying a certain type of light bulb so that the lamps are always dim enough for you. You are always Joker’s main priority and that will never be any different. You’re his entire world and when he cups your face in his hands to kiss you, he likes to say, “I’ve got the whole world in my hands, Emily. Look after it for me, okay?”. The first time you did it back to him, he almost sobbed with love for you even as he nodded and said, “mm-hm”. The sound was smug even with how overwhelmed he was in that moment and your stomach swooped; as again did you only love him more.

Your life is still a bit messy but oh, you do your best. Joker knows better than anybody how it can feel to do your best and to still feel like you’re not doing enough, like you’re not trying enough, like you’re not good enough for all of the demands and responsibilities which are daily placed on you without reprieve or without a break, and he continues to do everything he can to help you, to be there for you and to support you. He leaves notes lying around to help you remember to do things, to not forget things, and if ever you do forget something, Joker’s there to do it for you. There is only ever love in the things he does. Looking after you and being there for you and loving you is the reason Joker does what he does, the reason he tries every single day to reconnect with the man you first fell in love with. Oh, but he was still that man; he had only stopped caring, he had only succumbed to all that was making him numb, and every day did you love him just as fiercely and just as strongly as you always had. Your two cats are spoiled rotten by the both of you; Joker still loves to watch you interact with them and when chaos is shut away, when his suit is hung up and his face is washed, Joker likes to sit on the sofa with you to watch the news with your children around you; his fingers in their fur or in your hair, and the two of you talk quietly. About your days, about the things you need to do tomorrow, how you have been feeling... the evenings are ticked away in this way, with the two of you indulging only in each other. You love horror films and Hallowe’en and still does Joker love how excited you get! He joins in with you now with the celebration and the decorations, but instead of hiding within you now while you watch horror films, scared did he used to be, he now watches you with them and cracks dark jokes. In one film, the screaming victim got decapitated and Joker snorted and said, “Talk about losing your head when it gets crazy out there”. It’s up to you if you join in with him but if you do, he will turn to the side to give you his attention, only just watching whatever is on the old and grainy screen. He loves to cuddle with you and if you ever get scared of the things you watch, Joker assumes the protective role as he cuddles you. “Nothing’s going to hurt you, Emily. Joker’s here.”. He would die for you, kill for you... you’re his entire world and he loves you with everything that he is, everything that he has. 

You are very creative and to this day, Joker is still in awe of everything that you’re able to do. Your writing is so beautiful and everything that you create is beautiful. Your arts are creepy but Joker’s not creeped out by them anymore. Long ago did he stare into the abyss and see it staring back, so what used to negatively affect him rarely does now. “Awh, that’s sweet.” // “Joker, it’s - there’s blood all over the - “ // “Yeah,” He shrugs, “But it’s sweet in a morbid way, you know?” You thought you did, but you weren’t entirely sure. Either way, you were just glad that he liked your arts. His support meant the world to you. You have an entire playlist of songs you would like to play for Joker, and when you ask if you can play for him, Joker beams and practically runs across the room to sit down for you, running a hand through those dyed green curls which bounce gently against the tops of his shoulders as he does so. Joker is transfixed by the way you play the guitar; your hands are one of his favourite parts of you because they create pure magic every single day. You love to read and when you do, Joker tends to read through his old journal. It’s a quiet time for the both of you and it’s most likely that Joker will want to cuddle with you while you do these things; so that you can spend time together... separately. Occasionally, Joker might read a joke out loud; they’ll be dark jokes, ones which make you laugh because you know not how else to react, and he’ll soak in your response. Don’t fake your laughter, though, Joker will notice and he won’t appreciate that. By now, he’s used to your routine when it comes to running and walking in the woods, so he doesn’t ask if he can go with you - he’ll know if you want him to join you by the way you said goodbye to him. If you linger near him, he’ll know that you want him to join you; but if you’re quickly out of the door, then he knows he should stay. When you come home, everything is ready for you to get clean and comfortable; for Joker will always do what he can to look after you, no matter what!

On the nights when everything he’s ever said and done catches up to him, or when the world is just too loud and you need everything and everyone to go away, the two of you hole up in the bedroom. If Joker is the one who needs comforting, then you’re the one who reads to him or tells him about anything you’re currently hyperfixated on or curious about, but if you’re the one who needs comforting then Joker reads from his old journal or reads your current book to you. You can’t live without music or your cats and that’s precisely why Joker protects everything that you hold most dear to you, and that includes his own self. The both of you are so similar in so many ways and you have both shared many of the same experiences. You have so much love between you, so much need to be seen, known and loved, and you both have a dark sense of humour. You’re both strong and brave, creative and so full of love, and no matter what happens or who you both become, you will fall together again and again... and again. You’re soulmates and you’re truly meant to be, and that’s all that matters. Arthur Fleck loves you for all of you, through every rise and fall!

[bowiebond]

All superheroes are neurodivergent, and I refuse to believe otherwises. In fact, I will list some of the Marvel heroes I headcanon as ND

Scott Lang: ADHD. He jumps from fixation to fixation, his reoccurring hyperfixation being magic, he speaks out of turn and usually off topic to whatever is currently going on, has poor time management and is impulsive. He also had a strong moral code and will do what he feels is best, ie stealing from the rich. Luis and him get along so well because they’re brains are wired similarly, I’m just saying 👀

Tony Stark: ADHD/AUSTISM. This one is just as obvious as Scott. His special interest is science, he has poor social skills outside of what he’s adopted from others (masking in the form of sunglasses and a celebrity attitude), he doesn’t get social cues, is abrupt and interrupts others when hyperfocused and is know to be very impulsive. He has emotional outbursts when overwhelmed/overstimulated (though he deals with understimulation a lot too IMO), not good with empathising but is shown he can sympathise with others and even show them compassion if he’s close to them. Again, strong sense of justice that fits his own definition (deciding that he should be held responsible for his mistakes in making weapons, Ultron and Sokovia, etc).

Steve Rogers: AUTISM. Strong sense of justice, emotional outbursts, stretchy fabric/layers to avoid oversensitivity 👀, special interests were art and maybe even war/fighting, hard time making friends growing up, relates to others with his own stories when comforting people because that’s the only way he knows how, when he’s not interested in a task he will just leave without justifying it (ie the science exbo) which makes him appear arrogant (and Bucky seems used to Steve just randomly wandering off, probably cause Steve’s done it all throughout their friendship).

Bucky Barnes: ADHD. Poor time management, oversharing, bad with tones (his own and others), always seems confused because he’s almost never paying attention to a situation but instead is instead three topics ahead in his own mind, his hyperfixation in the 40’s in fantasy novels and science (specially mechanics) and he regains those fixations post-HYDRA but catching up on modern day fantasy media & boat mechanics. Makes notes of everything so he doesn’t forget anything, makes impulsive decisions all the time (freeing Zemo, asking Wakanda for new wings, moving in with Sam, etc) and has a (un)healthy dose of rejection sensitivity dysphoria.

Sam Wilson: AUTISM. Sam is the ultimate masker but this man has ASD and no one can tell me otherwise. He hates changes to his routine without his consent (ie unable to get rid of the boat, jogs every morning, etc), his special interest is technical engineering (his wings & Redwing), he often jokes at inappropriate times & refuses to apologise unless he feels he was in the wrong. Strong sense of justice, emotionally shuts down when stressed, has many casual friends but very few close friends because he finds it hard to connect with people (he connects with Nat, Steve & Bucky cause they’re all ND, duh).

Natasha Romanoff: AUTISM. Growing up in the red room forced her to be an expert at masking, but whenever she doesn’t seem to be acting ‘appropriately’, she’s shown to be uncaring of social cues, burns out easily, and thrives off routine. Her special interest was probably ballet for a long time before it was ruined for her. She wears tight clothes because she doesn’t like baggy outfits that will brush against her when she’s not expecting it and keeps her hair red because it’s her one constant that makes her feel comfortable and gives her something to focus on when she’s overwhelmed.

Peter Parker: ADHD/AUTISM. Do I really need to explain this one? I feel it’s overly on the nose. Hyperactive, special interest is spiderman, hyperfixation is science and pop culture, socially awkward and talks a little too fast for everyone else to catch up with. He’s the ADHD/ASD combo that slots right in under the wing of Tony.

James Rhodes: AUTISM. Come on. Come on. I just,,, he’s best friends with Tony Stark. He’s wanted to be in the Air Force since he was a kid, he went to MIT and has a Masters in the science of Aerospace Engineering. He’s the voice of reason and always thinks of the obvious conclusions without thought to the moral implications (ie killing baby Thanos) or the emotional process of others (ie Steve crashing into the ocean instead of jumping out of the plane). He’s stubborn and rarely yields to others opinions, even if it puts him under social scrutiny. He spends months looking for Tony when most would assume he was dead (and Rhodey has been shown to be very rational and level headed in everything else) because, honestly, I think Tony is his favourite person.

Bruce Banner: AUTISM. Bad with socialising, off in his own world half the time, ahead of conversations, heavy dose of RSD, jumps to conclusions because he interrupts others, emotional outbursts, special interest in physics (though he does have six other PHDs), etc. I’m also pretty sure he had DID as a kid (Hulk was his alter).

Thor: ADHD. Impulsive, doesn’t like change, poor time management, bouts of depression & anxiety, Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria, interrupts others, seems dumber than he is due to having no filter from brain to mouth, comfort item is his hammer, personally I think he hyperfixates on Jane Foster because she’s the first human he’s really met which is why the eventual break up isn’t as painful as say Tony’s break with Pepper.

Peter Quill: ADHD. Look I could explain this one, but it’s just his whole vibe. The obsession with old school music and film, the impulsive behaviour, the way he interacts with others, he just gives the vibe.

DC BONUS

BATMAN: AUTISM. Special interest is bats, self isolates, doesn’t get along with others because he’s socially awkward, his mask is Bruce Wayne, lives by a strict moral code, blah blah blah HES OBVIOUSLY AUTISTIC (and so are all the robins send tweet)

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While I do have, or used to have, hypochondriac tendencies, ADHD was one of those things that I considered, and quickly decided I’m too smart to have ADHD, and discarded it as a potential self-diagnosis. Today, watching videos about how to cope with ADHD and comparing it with what my focus realistically looks like... hmmm. Much to think about.

Once again, a warning - these are notes about myself, for myself. They’re self-centered on purpose. Therapy is expensive and I already bought an instrument this month.

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Going through my blog is always strange. That kind of “huh, so that’s who I am” feeling, not in a judging way, not too surprised, just... an observation (it took me an hour to get here). I wonder what I talk about, what gets overlooked, how am I making progress, what did I think I have learned, but have not.

GERD is still a battle. One reason why it got so bad, I’ve realized today, is that I often laid down after a meal - this was double dangerous, because I usually feel the need to lay down after a _bad_ meal - spicy, greasy, processed, fried, FODMAPs - sometimes all of those at once, each one increasing acidity and/or making me tired.

So, today’s lesson is

(1) don’t lay down after a heavy meal.

But! Also once thing I’ve noticed lately, is that often I’m in vague discomfort, just “tired” but not really sure why or what is going on. Quite often, it’s lower back pain, except I don’t feel it as pain. And since I take enough painkillers as it is:

(2) Laying down on the floor, doing sit-ups or yoga or otherwise stretching the lower back might help if you’re feeling rattled for no reason.

idk I’m still processing all the having ADHD / being autistic combo. Oh, speaking of - ever since I was a kid, I furiously hated when people started explaining me details without giving me an overview first. Apparently, when ADHD people are in their low points, their mental capacity is 2-3 things at a time, unlike the usual 5-7 for common folks. Therefore:

(3) Don’t be afraid to watch videos twice, or admit you need something repeated. And more than usual: prepare ahead of time.